Hey guys, i've been gone awhile. Lots changed since I last posted and yet it hasn't. I think the last time I was here I couldn't find a job and was lost and depressed. Things have gotten a lot better since then. I work two jobs now one at a vaccination clinic as a vet assistant and the other at the pet area of a countrymax store. It seems I always come here to rant or complain about inane shit and I apologize for that, I always feel better after coming here though. Why does life like to throw so much shit at you all at once? I have my underlying issues yes but it seems like the minute one other thing goes wrong everything else likes to follow. I just went through a meds change of sorts, inept morons at the office i go to for my psychiatrist and therapist were too damn stupid to call in a refill for my adarol so I was off it for two weeks. I just went back on it two weeks ago now and its fucking me up bad when it used to help. Because of that my anxiety had been through the roof and I can't focus on things anymore and keep getting lost. On top of that I've been very quick to get extremely angry and feel out of control. In the past week alone all three of my fishtanks have become diseased, I found out a snake of mine brought mites with it, my pet rat has mange, and I've had expensive car trouble and vet bills. I have so little money right now. I just want to call into work tomorrow but I feel like I have no choice. My boss doesn't care if I feel unsafe to drive or if i'm having panic attacks in the middle of a clinic. I feel like I'll make him mad and possibly lose my job if I do. I really like this job. I'm just feeling trapped again. Like I have no options and i'm going to lose it. What do I do? I can't function on a basic level anymore. I just threw some stuff in anger and broke something I was working really hard on and just broke down. I just took two hydroxyzine to just drug myself to sleep I don't even care.