Normally I wouldn't post on a Friday evening because I should be observing the Sabbath, but I have some things on my mind that I need to express. I'm pretty certain that I'm expressing the character (ever so slightly) that Christ has revealed to me, and that is what we should be doing on the Sabbath. It started to dawn on me a little while ago, in a post I made this afternoon. While I was strolling down memory lane, about the bumpy parts of the road; how sometimes you wonder if you made the right decisions in life: Just a little drop (post #6). When I look back to how my life has progressed so far, I begin to see The Creator's hand in it. Not that I've been a good boy, sometimes quite the contrary, but He overlooked all of that and still provided what I needed, when the time was right. Look at it this way: when I originally sent my wife to get her ACT 235 certification (needed to carry a firearm while on duty in the state of PA) it was on her own accord. She wanted to do it, and was happy. Now ten years later, she is the one taking care of me while I go back to school. For of all things, nursing. Ten years ago, if you would have told me that I would set out to become a nurse, I would have laughed at such an absurd thought. Although there are quite a few people in the medical field in my family, it just wasn't what I was interested in. It wasn't for me. Oh, how ten years, a marriage, and two children will change a man. Change isn't easy, either. There were many times that I lamented for the "good old days" of my young adulthood, when I was free to make whatever decision I wanted, whenever I wanted to, and have nobody that was counting on me for their basic needs. I was a sinner, even thought I didn't look at it that way. I thought that as long as I didn't do anything bad to anyone else- mind my own business- that all was well and good. I couldn't have been further from the truth. It's taken me over a decade to come to understand how sin propagates our mind and body, and how hard it is to finally decide to ask for help and forgiveness. I caught myself, in the act of sinning, not wanting to pray to the Lord, because I knew that if I did, I would stop doing what I was doing. That it hurt (my feelings) to even think that I would have to refrain from doing that which I liked. That when I came to my senses, and prayed for forgiveness and for Jesus to take away that which had power over me, He did it. And it was gone. Don't get me wrong, I'm still a human, a sinner; but I don't set out to practice sin. Not intentionally. Getting back into perspective, I am currently a full time student. I can't call myself a nursing student, as I have to qualify to get into the RN program at my local college. Right now, I am on my third semester taking the classes I need to meet the requirements to apply for a position in the program. I didn't even really start yet! To date, I've taken numerous biology courses to make up for my lack of knowledge in the healthcare field. But before I could take those classes, I had to take chemistry as a basis for a foundation. I'm not complaining, as a matter of fact, I am extremely grateful that it is set up in this manner. The things I have learned so far have astounded me, and I came to the realization that I actually love to learn. The class I'm currently taking, anatomy and physiology I, all 6 hours of it twice a week, is a delight. I originally had ominous feelings of foreboding about this class, stemming from all of the horror stories from other students that have taken it. All the memorization, all the steps, the Lord strengthens me. When I look back and see what I have done, because of Him, I am amazed. When things stick in your head, or answers pop out of my mouth, I know He is there with me, guiding and powering me up! I have no other explanation for it. I have examples- of when I didn't ask for help, or when I thought it was because of my "great intellect" (pride, actually), and was very quickly shown that it wasn't. It was very apparent one time during a test, that I thought that I had it in the bag, I studied, I knew it all. The questions asked were familiar, but I just couldn't write the answer down! I knew it, the answer was on the tip of my tongue. He shown me that I wasn't all that, He was firmly in control and guiding me, not the other way around. Don't get me wrong, I'm still learning new things about Him every day. Take, for example, what I was just tested on in A&P I the other day- the bones that make up the skull. The design of the human body is quite fastening, unique, and extremely complex. And to think that we just throw it away some times because the guy next to us seems to have something that we think we need, and we take it -or- get taken. It saddens me to think along these lines, because for me, life used to be cheap. No big deal, you live, and at some point you die. What you do in the interim is what defines you. You either live by a pre-conceived notion or set of rules, or you are a hypocrite. And everything is okay, as long as you don't intentionally hurt someone else. Brothers and sisters, there is nothing further from the truth than that. A delusion. Who defines what's okay to do? We do? Society? It comes down to a pretty simple answer- you either follow what Jesus asks you to do, or you go your own way. He won't force you to go down His path, but he will be there to help you along if you do decide to. I know he has for me. There are those on this website that are just so close to understanding the underlying principles that govern this cursed world, but won't make the connection that will ultimately save them. Yes, we created the way this world is run, but we sure didn't do it alone. People used to think it was funny, when I would talk about secret societies and what they were planning on doing. Sure enough, many of those same people have begun to see what I saw, through all the scandal and corruption that seems to pop up at the moment. What it would always come down to in the end would be the fact that no family or governed unit, would be able to keep on track for centuries to pull off the "greatest heist" ever known. Sure they can- look who's leading them- Satan! Think evolution has all the answers? It's just Satan again. He's been at it for quite some time, and we have no idea of how long before Adam and Eve were created, that he's been up to it. Don't think you can outsmart him! He has eons of practice, and on beings of much greater intellectual capacity than us. The answer is to ask Jesus to keep him away from you. He will do it, if you are sincere, and don't go chasing off after Satan. I know, I used to, I just didn't know I was doing it. Not convinced that evolution is a deception? How can someone in a scientific field such as healthcare not believe in evolution? The answer is simple- initial and irreducible complexity. We can all agree that simple mousetrap consists of a base, a spring, a catch, a trip, and a wire that snaps the neck of the unsuspecting mouse. Can the unit work without any single one of these pieces? Your hearing- for example- is a complex series of mechanical and electro-chemical impulses that transform air pressure waves into what we perceive as sound. Our hearing starts as slight pressure waves make their way into our external auditory meatus (by being gently guided by the auricle) to our tympanic membrane (eardrum). This makes the tympanic membrane reverberate just like the windows of your house as one of those annoying "boom"er cars drives by. Then there are a set of tiny bones, called ossicles, that act as a mechanical amplifier of those air pressure waves to act upon the cochlea- a snail shell shaped organ that is full of fluid. This fluid, called endolymph, puts pressure on little hairs called cilia, and different patches of cilia react to different pitches of noise, depending on where in the cochlea they are located. The vestibulocochlear nerve carries these nerve impulses to the brain, where the brain interoperates them as sound. Complex enough? Not yet. The ossicles are located in a cavity called the labyrinth, in our skull. The ossicles and the cochlea are completely surrounded by bone, except for three little holes- the external auditory canal (the hole that makes your ear), the internal auditory foramen (where the vestibulocochlear nerve comes out), and lastly the Eustachian tube (connects to your upper pharynx to provide air pressure equalization or your eardrum would rupture the first time you went up a mountain or dove underwater). The ossicles are formed at the same time the skull is formed, but they were already full sized and ready to go while you were still in vitro. How astounding is that?