Psychological

Thanks gentlemen for defining hindes. @Swedish woman do you worry about hunting season? Wearing hides could be dangerous at times.

 

No i'm not worried because we life inside an old army base witch is surrounded with an 4 meters high railings and its an protected era we both are the only inhabitis and vorbidden for others to come.
My husband ( were not married ) shoot only very selective ( sick, old or helpless animals ) and weve made various shelters for them to hide for weather etc, and in wintertime we feed tham also on this places 9 all regulated by our goverment ), living here now 18 years makes me "hungry " for more icame less in civilization ( only 2 times year ) in all those years i became more on the animal side of life after finnishing off my artic clothing made out of hinde pelts ( we live in the arctig on the border wher growing trees and green stops ) nu im wearing fulltime my pelts im feeling more and more that i'm an animaland im gowing take steps to moving out of our cabin and away from my husband and slowely moving into the group of hindes who live here to live with them and to go living complete as an animal what i am.
Did you understand it better now ( my english is nt so good )??

This is me now ,

 

@Brokor nailed it!

 

Yes, I understood what you said but you want to leave your husband and go live with deer? You are female so what are you going to do about menstruation? Maybe you are older and no longer have to worry about your monthly cycle but your monthly flow could be a messy issue. Not sure if you have polar bears up where you are at but a study showed polar bears did seem more interested in menstrual blood then North American bears.

 

Best stick with Hubby,Wolves have been known to take down hunters dressed in fur and I'm pretty sure you will be the slowest one in the herd.

 

Swedish Woman you may not like what I am about to say, but I say this with respect and concern for your well being. You need to talk to someone and explain what you are thinking other than just your husband. I have spent time in the far north and high up in the mountains around the tree line. And there is a saying far up in the north. "The North Has Got Him". Or he has Cabin Fever it is an actual condition that happens to people. Sometimes people who have not spent a lot of time in the wilderness are overcome by the vastness and the great silence and they lose themselves. Your story reminds me of a book and then later a movie called "Into the Wilderness". I suggest with all respect for your own well being, that you go to town with your husband and talk to someone you trust about what you are feeling. All the very best.

 

Yes i go live with deer.
Im not longer a female im an animal and menstruation , ive been 38 years a go born with the mrkh syndrome so i haven’t a monthly cycle.
And polarbears dont live here they live 1500 km far up and cant swim the barentz sea this is too long for them to swim

 

Youre right but than when it comes is the time that the nature needs mee for feed than i need the nature , and who eats me enjoy ive live forever than should my ghost be the guard of that animal

 

Ghosts? So you have seen or believe in ghosts?
In my imagination as a very young child I imagined that a witch was coming for me,As I got older I realized this was nothing more than an overactive imagination from watching The Wizard of Oz

 

I still don't understand how, if you are so far out in the bush, that you are on here with internet interacting?

this post feels trollish to me